Down

I'm feeling really depressed today, I'm so tired of this. Why? I feel the need to write but nothing is coming to me. I usually feel somewhat better after putting things down on 'paper'.

If I can't write, I think I will sit here and listen to Stevie Ray Vaughan's slow songs, that always help me work out my emotions. His sound of his guitar syncs perfectly with the emptiness I feel, like the sound of a distant train whistle in the night.

I have so many things to do right now, but I have no motivation whatsoever to do any of them, I just want to sleep.

Emptyness

I don't know how else to explain it except to say I have been feeling empty these last couple of days. Like a shell, just going through the motions. I can't, or just don't want to think.

I really wish I could figure this out, I am getting so tired of it all. I just want to sleep. I did take a nice two hour nap today. It was the highlight of my day. It is taking all my energy just to get any work done, On the bright side, I have been able to get a few drawings done.

I was feeling alive again for awhile, i thought I was getting better, but that is gone now, just a temporary feeling.

Nothing

I haven't had anything I want to write about lately. Not sure why, maybe I do thing's in phases. I could write more about my life, but as usual I have lost my motivation, and don't feel like writing about my experiences. I think I have also covered my views about what goes on inside my head, I can't think of anything to add to that subject, and besides I usually need to be pretty depressed to express my feelings.

What do I write about? I need to think about something that motivates me again.

Stranglehold

Okay, So Dani's friend, Denice, was over one night, I think it was in the fall of 1989. We had been drinking a bit, and I think some pot might have been involved as well. We decided it would be fun to make a video. I hooked up a black and white video camera and the stereo to the VCR.  I made a guitar out of cardboard and an old straight edge. Denice made a drum set from a spot light and wooden spoons. Dani would sing, dance, and play the bong.

We popped in a little Ted Nugent and this is the result, Ted Nugent's Stranglehold.

We would go on to make a few other videos that night, but I liked this one the best. If I get the time I will dig those other ones up.